For an update on my health:: I am recovering from another bout of pleurisy, which i have had for about 3 weeks now. The pain has been God-awful and within the first week of experiencing the ailment again, i have had to increase my pain medications FOUR TIMES MORE!! ..Now, i am a petite gal, so this increase, has really thrown me for a whammy! I have been having trouble focusing, have passed out once due to lack of oxygen, and have had lots of trouble remembering. ...Such a bummer when i can't even remember a conversation i had with my mom earlier that day..=0(
I went to the emergency room for all the tests, to make sure it was not pnuemonia, or a blood clot in my right lung...Lucky for me, the tests came out negative, but have been diagnosed with PLEURISY. I am happy that they are not going to insert a needle, though, to drain the fluid, from the chest wall. When they did that 2 years ago, and left it there for a week, i seriously did not know whether i was going to make it out of that hospital or not. All the odds were against me, and i was delirious with pain for over 14 days straight. Miraculously, i was able to discharge from that hospital visit, that lasted nearly a month. ...=0(
It REALLY IRKS me, when i hear people say to me NOW,...." OOOH it doesn't even LOOK like you are very sick! " ...well, let me tell you PEOPLE, ...LOOKS CAN BE DECEIVING! ...and my body is breaking down rapidly! I will be just 42 years old this Fall Season, but my body feels that of a 90 year old persons. When the doctors told me i cannot physically work any longer, it took me a years time to be able to accept it. Growing old gracefully is a task! And growing old, while UNHEALTHY is even more so!
Seize the moments that you have to have fun, expel energy, take on the World, run marathons, or whatever it is that floats your boats. When we are younger, many times, we are conditioned to believe that we can "save up time" to ENJOY our Golden Years! Well, for many of us, this is not the case.
I have been sickly most of my Life, but the past two years have been far, THE WORST. With each new episode of ailments i endure, my body weakens and the (outside shell) seems even more frail than it was. My soul is still FEISTY AS CAN BE and i am still child-like, in many ways, but yes, the "down times" do take a toll on my Spirit and my carefree soul saddens more than it used to.
Making jewelry has given me something to look forward to. Just this past year i have interacted more with Deviant Art, have i been able to establish some new friendships with other artists, and / or viewers. By just a mere note or message from them, my day / night cheers me up tremendously! It may sound corny, but really, does extending a friendly HELLO or making a comment about some jewelry i posted, or a picture of my darling Cocker Spaniel, Abby, ~~ anything like that, ...really take up so much time away from your busy work schedules?? ...if you ONLY KNEW how touched i feel...to be special even momentarily,...enough to be noticed for something more than the "SICKLY GAL".... ... ...
I really enjoy hearing from fellow artists, and / or viewers,...it helps me feel somewhat grounded. I strive to find balance EVERYDAY in this unhealthy World i am stuck in and with just simple HELLO's and etc. it can really turn my whole day around! ...
HAPPY SUMMERTIME, EVERYONE!